What a week!

What a week of adjusting to my quickly changing life.

It was the second full week of the new visitation schedule for my oldest son. I still have a big empty space when he is not here, the hardest part is when the bus stops in front of the house to let the neighbor kid off and Macie (the puppy) sits in front of the door and watches for her beloved bubby to walk in. It makes my heart hurt more, since my desk looks directly out into the foyer where she is sitting and waiting oh so patiently.

Then my darling baby girl brought home her cap and gown and graduation goodies. Ugh. Another tug at my heart strings. It is exciting too. Her plans are to attend Rudae's Beauty College in Fort Wayne, so she won't be traveling way far away from me....but still, she is growing up and away.

Add to that the big day on Thursday. Thursday my baby girl turned 18. She promptly informed me I can't ground her anymore and that she is getting a tattoo. Oh but I can still ground her as long as she lives under my roof, drives my car and eats my food, uses my soft water and enjoys my heat and air conditioning. Its just how it is. The tattoo, I suppose I don't have much to say about that, but I did express my sincere disappointment.

Her birthday gathering was nice, we took dinner and cake and ice cream to my parents house and her boyfriend came and my oldest son's girlfriend was there too. We had a great time and my daughter made quite a haul in gifts.

This weekend the boys were with me, and I get them next weekend for mother's day weekend and the following weekend is my normal weekend again. I am so happy. My youngest son went away for the weekend with his aunt and uncle. And my oldest son and I have been doing yardwork. We bought a portable fire pit at our new Menard's store last night and had a fire in the backyard. One of the neighbor girls came over and sat and talked with us for awhile and it was very relaxing. My son and I sat out by the fire until almost 1 in the morning. Maybe this new arrangement is bringing us closer, who knows?

Oh and on a side note, we had our lovely little neighborhood meeting and spring clean up yesterday morning. Well needless to say, I have many issues with our association, but I don't want to be an officer so I just have to deal with it all. Their latest and greatest idea is they are going to strongly suggest that we all switch to just one trash pick-up service (of their choosing of course) so that only one big heavy trash truck a week comes into our neighborhood to pick up trash and thus less wear and tear on our streets. So should we only allow UPS and Fed Ex in once a week, what about other repair trucks, should we schedule repairs just one day a month and hope it fits our schedules so there is less wear and tear on our streets? Heaven forbid someone should build a house on a vacant lot. Or a room addition. Or landscape. Or do anything to improve anything. OMG what if someone pours a concrete driveway or sidewalk??? Oh yeah, definitely a sore spot with me.

But nonetheless, I did survive a week of impending changes in my life, learning to let go of my kids a little and let them spread their wings. No one told me this part was so hard.