Sunday, December 31, 2006

New Year's Eve


So here it is, New Year's Eve. Just another New Year's Eve. It was a holiday I used to really look forward to. I like to get dressed up in pretty clothes and go somewhere nice. I guess somewhere along the line I have gotten old. I still like to dress up in pretty clothes and go somewhere nice. But truthfully, New Year's Eve absolutely scares the hell out of me. It really is amateur night, and it just isn't worth the risk. I would not be opposed to sharing a nice quiet evening in front of the fire with a special someone - but that is not in the cards for this year I suppose, who knows what next year might bring?
So it will be a quiet evening here, and some time for some reflection and who knows, I may even come up with some new year's resolutions, I hate those things, but maybe, just maybe....

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Home on friday, work on Monday

I Love the Penguin~

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Bringing in the New Year with Football



Green Bay will kick some ass and tie it up!




THIS WEEK'S SCHEDULE - WEEK 17
Saturday, Dec. 30
N.Y. Giants at Washington 8:00 pm


JESS - NY GIANTS
AWB - WASHINGTON



Sunday, Dec. 31
Carolina at New Orleans 1:00 pm


JESS - NEW ORLEANS
AWB - NEW ORLEANS



Cleveland at Houston 1:00 pm


JESS - HOUSTON
AWB - HOUSTON



Detroit at Dallas 1:00 pm


JESS - DALLAS
AWB - DALLAS



Jacksonville at Kansas City 1:00 pm


JESS - KANSAS CITY
AWB - KANSAS CITY



New England at Tennessee 1:00 pm


JESS - NEW ENGLAND
AWB - NEW ENGLAND



Oakland at N.Y. Jets 1:00 pm


JESS - OAKLAND
AWB - JETS



Pittsburgh at Cincinnati 1:00 pm


JESS - CINCY
AWB - CINCY



Seattle at Tampa Bay 1:00 pm


JESS - SEATTLE
AWB - TAMPA BAY



St. Louis at Minnesota 1:00 pm


JESS - ST. LOUIS
AWB - ST. LOUIS



Arizona at San Diego 4:15 pm


JESS - SAN DIEGO
AWB - SAN DIEGO



Atlanta at Philadelphia 4:15 pm


JESS - ATLANTA
AWB - PHILADELPHIA



Buffalo at Baltimore 4:15 pm


JESS - BALTIMORE
AWN - BALTIMORE



Miami at Indianapolis 4:15 pm


JESS - INDIANAPOLIS
AWB - INDIANAPOLIS



San Francisco at Denver 4:15 pm


JESS - SAN FRANCISCO
AWB - DENVER



Green Bay at Chicago 8:15 pm


JESS - CHICAGO
AWB - GREEN BAY

hehehe


Are You a Drama Queen?



Your Results:
You're the Queen of Courtesy
You speak up when something's wrong, but you stay quiet when it won't help. You know what to do to garner respect from your peers - but you also know what not to do as well. You hold yourself in high-esteem and you don't let people take advantage of you. But you're also tactful and keep a cool head. Sure, when things go wrong you could scream and pick a fight, but you'd rather spend your energy on improving your own life, not jumping into a catty battle. When a friend takes center stage, you're happy for her, because you know that she'll be happy for you when it's your turn to shine. And when something goes wrong in a high-pressure situation, you deal with it calmly and stay composed. You know that flying off the handle will only make things that much worse. You also know that there are times when you just can't win, and instead of letting it get to you, you move on with your life. Your combination of self-respect and respect for those around you will serve you well wherever you are.

Note - This test came from the same website as the personality test!
Testriffic.com

A new computer!!!



My Christmas present to myself arrived yesterday. It was a very exciting event. I bought myself a new laptop! I didn't expect it until the end of the week but when I checked on the status yesterday I was told it would be delivered yesterday! I was such a happy girl!

Of course, the big concern was when it got here I needed help getting it set up. My computer geek bud had already promised he would do it for me - but my problem was I wasn't sure how we were going to get this arranged, its not like he lives next door or anything. I called him when I got home with it...he was busy and said he would call me back. You have to know me and how impatient I can be. A box with my name on it, my new computer inside and all of those buttons. I just like to push buttons because they say to do so. He and I both knew full well if I was left alone with it long enough I was going to push a button...

My daughter needed to go in town, her cell phone was acting up. So I was like sure, no problem, this will keep me out of trouble... We are not halfway into town when my cell phone rings and Mr. Computer is on the other end wanting to know where I am...I tell him on my way to town...he tells me he is in my driveway, of course I don't believe him because he never indicated that he would be in my neck of the woods yesterday...something about wanting to surprise me, hehehe... so I tell him to go on in...the box is on the sofa...my daughter and I proceed to town and get her phone fixed with me being Mz. Impatient about wanting to get back home and she was wanting to hang out with her friends, so we compromise and I drop her off at her friends' house and then I finally go back home. Mr. Computer is working dilligently away on my beautiful computer and I am a happy girl.

I guess you can tell its all set up and operational and I am just so excited. It really was a good thing he was nearby, otherwise, I would have done something wrong...We deal with technical issues over the phone quite often and I am just button happy and we have to keep starting over because if it says click here, finish or next....well of course....anyhow....I HAVE A NEW COMPUTER!


And a huge thank you to my own personal Computer Tech~ ;)

Life Is Good

This past week has been good. A few minor glitches here and there along the way, but all in all it has been good. Quite honestly I dreaded Christmas very much this year. I did find perspective and what truly mattered and once I was able to focus on that I was able to be content. I do honestly have to say it just never seemed like it was really Christmas. Odd. But yet there were pleasant times shared with the ones who truly matter in my life and wonderful memories made.


Not all went as planned, I didn't want my kids to be apart from each other on Christmas morning, but my ex never got around to inviting my daughter to spend it with them, just the fact that she had to wait for an invitation from him should tell you most of the story...but she and I had some quality time together. She is a wonderful kid, and at this point, I pretty much get her all to myself, I don't think she will let him close enough again to ever hurt her like that. Can't say that I blame her.


Throughout the week leading up to Christmas friends and family stopped by or I met them for lunch, dinner or shopping trips. I would have to say, Saturday turned out to be one of the most precious days. I took my daughter and her friend to the mall to start and finish their shopping (kids ya know!) and then called my very best friend. I wanted to drop his present off to him. I thought I knew where I could find him but he totally surprised me by actually being at the mall, in the bar at Friday's of all places. So I joined him for a bit of holiday cheer and delivered his present. Then he still had shopping to do so we joined forces and shopped most of the afternoon, we had just done this a few days before, but for some reason our moods and attitudes were a bit different on Saturday! We had such a good time. It was one of those precious times I will always treasure and am thinking perhaps it will just have to become our holiday tradition.



Mostly, this year, Christmas came within my heart via kids, friends and family - what truly matters most.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Christmas Tree Jump

Does this surprise me? No. Believe it or not, I see the humor in it...methinks AWB is rubbing off on this blog ;)

What A Great Christmas Gift...


Yesterday, there was a knock at my door, when I got to the door, the UPS truck was pulling away, but a package was sitting on my doorstep. When I brought the package in, I knew it was a gift for me from a friend, I had been given a heads up it would be arriving. And I was told to open it when it got here. So I did! It was the coolest thing.... a pajama gram! Upon opening a box there is this nice keepsake hatbox and a lavendar sachet pillow (for sweet dreams) a cute little do not disturb sign "Relaxation in Progress" that will come in quite handy for my bubble baths that I so love to take, and an adorable pair of red satin pajamas with candy cane piping trim. And...they fit perfectly! What a cool gift! I had never heard of a pajama gram before but there is nothing I love more than my down time in cozy jammies by the fire! It was one of the most thoughtful and sweet gifts that I have received in many years. So, to you my very best friend in the world, thank you again and my wish for you is a very Merry Christmas - if we just make the best of it, it will be ;).

Friday, December 22, 2006

Christmelicious

I tip my hat to these kids! I don't care how they get the message as long as they get it. Besides, Jesus was a fun guy, everyone wanted Him to attend their parties, afterall, he changed water to wine!!!

Christmas Football


Saturday, Dec. 23

Kansas City at Oakland 8:00 pm

Jess - Kansas City


Sunday, Dec. 24

Baltimore at Pittsburgh 1:00 pm

Jess - Baltimore

Carolina at Atlanta 1:00 pm

Jess - Carolina

Chicago at Detroit 1:00 pm

Jess - Chicago

Indianapolis at Houston 1:00 pm

Jess - Indianapolis

New England at Jacksonville 1:00 pm

Jess - New England

New Orleans at N.Y. Giants 1:00 pm

Jess - New Orleans

Tampa Bay at Cleveland 1:00 pm

Jess - Cleveland

Tennessee at Buffalo 1:00 pm

Jess - Tennessee

Washington at St. Louis 1:00 pm

Jess - St. Louis

Arizona at San Francisco 4:05 pm

Jess - San Francisco

Cincinnati at Denver 4:15 pm

Jess - Denver (Just because they got snow for Christmas!)

San Diego at Seattle 4:15 pm

Jess - Seattle

Monday, Dec. 25
Philadelphia at Dallas 5:00 pm

Jess - Dallas

N.Y. Jets at Miami 8:30 pm

Jess - NY Jets



During Monday night's game it came to light that next season I may have to revamp my system, it seems there are some other factors that intrigue me while viewing football - some being lines on fields, good happy dances, and the appearance of the teams "costumes" or "outfits"...

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Where are you Christmas?



As Cindy Lou Who sings in "The Grinch" -- Where are you Christmas, why can't I find you? That question rings ever so prevalent in my heart right now after reading this story on Angry White Boy's blog. Follow it up with this story...and then add this in for good measure and I am starting to see Christmas in the hearts of fellow bloggers.


This is a very sad situation, with my youngest child being 7 it truly tugs at my heart. I am seeing the blogosphere unite for these children and I am also feeling Christmas in my heart. My wish for all of you who read this, is that you are able to respond to that tugging you are feeling at your heart strings, its very real and its for a good cause and I believe by responding to that tug, you will find the true magic of Christmas within this year.

'Twas The Night Before Christmas, He Lived All Alone, In A One Bedroom House Made Of Plaster And Stone.


I Had Come Down The Chimney With Presents To Give, And To See Just Who In This Home Did Live.


I Looked All About, A Strange Sight I Did See, No Tinsel, No Presents, Not Even A Tree.


No Stocking By Mantle, Just Boots Filled With Sand, On The Wall Hung Pictures Of Far Distant Lands.


With Medals And Badges, Awards Of All Kinds, A Sober Thought Came Through My Mind.


For This House Was Different, It Was Dark And Dreary, I Found The Home Of A Soldier, Once I Could See Clearly.


The Soldier Lay Sleeping, Silent, Alone, Curled Up On The Floor In This One Bedroom Home.


The Face Was So Gentle, The Room In Such Disorder, Not How I Pictured A United States Soldier.


Was This The Hero Of Whom I'd Just Read? Curled Up On A Poncho, The Floor For A Bed?


I Realized The Families That I Saw This Night, Owed Their Lives To These Soldiers Who Were Willing To Fight.


Soon Round The World, The Children Would Play, And Grownups Would Celebrate A Bright Christmas Day.


They All Enjoyed Freedom Each Month Of The Year, Because Of The Soldiers, Like The One Lying Here.


I Couldn't Help Wonder How Many Lay Alone, On A Cold Christmas Eve In A Land Far From Home.


The Very Thought Brought A Tear To My Eye, I Dropped To My Knees And Started To Cry.


The Soldier Awakened And I Heard A Rough Voice, "Santa Don't Cry, This Life Is My Choice;


I Fight For Freedom, I Don't Ask For More, My Life Is My God, My Country, My Corps."


The Soldier Rolled Over And Drifted To Sleep, I Couldn't Control It, I Continued To Weep.


I Kept Watch For Hours, So Silent And Still And We Both Shivered From The Cold Night's Chill.


I Didn't Want To Leave On That Cold, Dark, Night, This Guardian Of Honor So Willing To Fight.


Then The Soldier Rolled Over, With A Voice Soft And Pure, Whispered, "Carry On Santa, It's Christmas Day, All Is Secure."


One Look At My Watch, And I Knew He Was Right. "Merry Christmas My Friend, And To All A Good Night."

Monday, December 18, 2006

Butt Really....


Life is all about BUTTS
you're either covering it,
laughing it off,
kicking it,
kissing it,
busting it,
or behaving like one ......

It's In The Heart



I have spent the last few weeks really struggling with Christmas. I have been angry about being divorced and not being able to carry through with all of my past traditions. I have been angry over not being able to be with my kids on Christmas morning. I have been angry over my own personal situation healthwise and not being able to do what I have done in years past.




My best friend has told me over and over, it's not the day, it's what you make of it. It's easy to offer words of wisdom, but it's hard to live them sometimes. I stepped back a bit this weekend and watched my kids in action. They are all busy with their secret missions and so excited. Each time they find a perfect gift for someone - they are so excited they want to give the gift immediately. It's hard to contain their excitement. It's also hard not to catch it.




I have finalized my plan of action for each child, just have to set it in motion over the next couple of days... Even though I am still fluttering around in limbo land and not knowing exactly when I will have my time with them over the holiday - I have come to the realization, whether I have them during the day on Christmas Eve or Christmas Day - it doesn't really matter, it just matters that I am with them. It will be our special time. All in all, I am the lucky one, I get them through all of the rest of the times, the good times, the bad times and the mediocre times - I wouldn't trade that for anything.




Christmas truly is in the heart - not the day.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

hehehe

You Christmas Stocking Will Be Filled with Money
You've either been really really good this year...Or Santa is trying to pay you off!
What Will Be In Your Christmas Stocking?

Friday, December 15, 2006

Are you ready for some football?




Okay, we would have matched 100% so I changed some of them just so there'd be a competition. I use stats to pick mine and JR uses a weather vane and a chicken feather.

Saturday, Dec. 16

Dallas at Atlanta 8:00 p.m.

JR - DALLAS
AWB - ATLANTA


Sunday, Dec. 17

Cleveland at Baltimore 1:00 p.m.

JR - BALTIMORE
AWB - BALTIMORE


Detroit at Green Bay 1:00 p.m.

JR - GREEN BAY
AWB - DETROIT


Houston at New England 1:00 p.m.

JR - NEW ENGLAND
AWB - NEW ENGLAND


Jacksonville at Tennessee 1:00 p.m.

JR - TENNESSEE
AWB - JACKSONVILLE


Miami at Buffalo 1:00 p.m.

JR - BUFFALO
AWB - MIAMI


N.Y. Jets at Minnesota 1:00 p.m.

JR - NY JETS
AWB - MINNESOTA


Pittsburgh at Carolina 1:00 p.m.

JR - CAROLINA
AWB - PITTSBURGH


Tampa Bay at Chicago 1:00 p.m.

JR - CHICAGO
AWB - CHICAGO


Washington at New Orleans 1:00 p.m.

JR - NEW ORLEANS
AWB - NEW ORLEANS


Denver at Arizona 4:05 p.m.

JR - ARIZONA
AWB - DENVER


Philadelphia at N.Y. Giants 4:15 p.m.

JR - NY GIANTS
AWB - NY GIANTS


St. Louis at Oakland 4:15 p.m.

JR - OAKLAND
AWB - OAKLAND


Kansas City at San Diego 8:15 p.m.

JR - SAN DIEGO
AWB - SAN DIEGO


Monday, Dec. 18

Cincinnati at Indianapolis 8:30 p.m

JR - INDIANAPOLIS
AWB - CINCINNATI (ACK!)

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Some days it pays to be a mom


Not to brag, but following is an essay written by my daughter.

To be a hero there are many traits needed. I am not talking about super-hero traits either. To be someone’s hero you need certain personality traits. Some of the traits include being trustworthy, honest, respectful, responsible and loving. There is one person that I look up to the most with all of these traits. This person is my mother.


She shows all of these traits everyday. My mom and I have gotten really close because of our past. She shows the trait trustworthy by keeping what I tell her between me and her. I have always been able to talk to my mom about any problems and she has always backed me up 100%. She has never once turned on me.


Another trait is honesty. She has this trait. She has always been honest and straight up with me. She only lies to me when it is to protect me and when it’s for my own good. It has never been bad lies though and I trust her no matter what.


The next trait that she shows very well is respect. My mom is very respectful of other people. Even though she might not agree with what you do she will respect you. She is not one to judge before knowing. My mom has always respected me for my choices. She might not agree with them and she will always get her two cents in but she won’t ever judge me for them. She respects you no matter ho you are or where you come from


Another trait is responsibility. My mom is very responsible. With three kids she kind of has to. She has always looked out for my two brother and I and she intends to for as long as possible. In many ways she is responsible.


Last and not least the trait she shows the most is love. My mother loves my brothers and I no matter what we do. She has always found a way to forgive us no matter what mistakes we have made. She loves us with everything that she has. We are her number one priority in her life and nothing is going to change that. My mom is my best friend. She has so many good things about her that makes her my hero.

Where are you Christmas?

Gosh, Christmas is less than two weeks away and I am feeling like Cindy Lou Who in the movie "The Grinch". Maybe some snow on the ground would help. I am going to get a couple of fresh wreaths today, maybe that will at least bring the scent of Christmas into the house.


I think every single parent struggles with Christmas. All traditions change and its hard to give them up, as adults we love and treasure our past traditions even more so than the kids. They are a comfort zone for us and make us feel as if all is right with the world. My kids will be with their dad this year on Christmas Eve. This is the first year that I have had to give them up to him on Christmas Eve. I will be searching for a new tradition this year, I just can't imagine what it is going to be like not going to bed in the wee hours of the morning because I have stayed up late making sure everything is perfect Christmas morning, and then laying in bed, hardly able to sleep, excited for the kids to get up in the morning and see their gifts, probably even more excited than the kids themselves. There will be no breakfast casserole and homemade cinnamon rolls to pop in the oven, no relatives coming over to see what Santa has left, no house full of excitement.


And yes, I know this is not the true meaning of Christmas, but we always stopped before bedtime on Christmas Eve, each of us unwrapping one present, new pajamas of course, changing into them and then reading the Christmas Story from the Bible, while sipping on some hot chocolate. Wrapping up the evening with letters to Santa and cookies and milk and a couple of carrots for Rudolph. No there will be no traditions this year.


I may just attend midnight mass this year, its the one place I can think of that is full of tradition, pageantry and peace.

A Christmas Story




'Twas the night before Christmas--Old Santa was pissed.
He cussed out the elves and threw down his list.
Miserable little brats, ungrateful little jerks.
I have a good mind to scrap the whole works!
I've busted my ass for damn near a year,
Instead of "Thanks Santa"--what do I hear?
The old lady bitches cause I work late at night.
The elves want more money--The reindeer all fight.
Rudolph got drunk and goosed all the maids.
Donner is pregnant and Vixen has AIDS.
And just when I thought that things would get better
Those assholes from the IRS sent me a letter,
They say I owe taxes--if that ain't damn funny
Who the hell ever sent Santa Claus any money?
And the kids these days--they all are the pits
They want the impossible--Those mean little shits
I spent a whole year making wagons and sleds
Assembling dolls...Their arms, legs and heads
I made a ton of yo yo's--No request for them,
They want computers and robots...they think - I'm IBM!
Flying through the air...dodging the trees
Falling down chimneys and skinning my knees
I'm quitting this job there's just no enjoyment
I'll sit on my fat ass and draw unemployment.
There's no Christmas this year now you know the reason,
I found me a blonde. I'm going SOUTH for the season
























Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Shooting Stars?



Looking for something unusual to do this evening? Check out this article. It might be fun to watch and pretend at least one is a "star" and make a wish. If you believe in your heart, who knows? Christmas time is the magical season of the year!