Thursday, December 25, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Politically Correct but author unknown...
Please accept with no obligation, implied or explicit, my best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially responsible, low-stress, non-addictive, gender-neutral celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced within the most enjoyable traditions of the religious persuasion of your choice, or secular practices of your choice, with respect for the religious/secular persuasion and/or traditions of others, or their choice not to practice religious or secular traditions at all. I also wish you a fiscally successful, personally fulfilling and medically uncomplicated recognition of the onset of the generally accepted calendar year 2009, but not without due respect for the calendars of choice of other cultures whose contributions to society have helped make America great. Not to imply that America is necessarily greater than any other country nor the only America in the Western Hemisphere. Also, this wish is made without regard to the race, creed, color, age, physical ability, religious faith or sexual preference of the wishes.
To all my Republican friends:
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
What's on my tree Wednesday
Raggedy Ann and Andy are paper ornaments I made out of cookie molds. Fifteen years or so ago, I was a very crafty person, always making something until I got hooked on the ultimate rubber stamping and scrapbooking. But I made these ornaments by putting all of this stuff in a blender and mixing it up really well and then squeezing out the excess liquid and pressing it into a cookie mold. It was a long drying process, I can't remember if I used the oven on a low temp or not, it seems like a thousand years ago.
After the paper was dry and I could remove it from the mold, then I was able to paint it. I have a heart one also, but the picture didn't turn out so well, but here is good ole Raggedy Ann and Andy who hang around on my tree every year.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Our life as we live it, LIVE and in FULL COLOR
I awoke from a deep sleep to what was obviously a dream of my daughter screaming my name for help......
I don't know what I was dreaming, but I sent a text to her right away asking if she was ok. She responded she was fine and in class and why was I asking.... so, well, nevermind, on with the day.
I decided I am not getting any better from this "sinus infection" and I don't want to be sick over the holiday, plus I have a ton of things to do in the next week, so I called the doctor and was able to get an early afternoon appointment. It turns out I am having an allergic reaction to amoxicillin, so new scripts in hand, off to the pharmacy I go.
While at the pharmacy, I get a call from one of the principals at the high school. It seems my daughter's boyfriend has taken her vehicle and wrecked it. You have got to be kidding me. I threatened this kid a little over two months ago if I ever caught him driving that vehicle again I would report it as stolen and press charges against him, it is in my name.
I get out of the pharmacy, head to the scene of the accident, and call the police on my way and tell them its stolen he has not been authorized to drive the vehicle. Well wouldn't you know he, he wrecked in front of the shop of my ex-husband's best friend, and well of course, my ex was already there when I got there..... Little Tonka Truck was laying in a ditch on its side in water. The fool boyfriend was standing there crying....and apologizing. Too late for apologies with me, I had already told him was never to drive it...
I talked to the officers and told them he knew he was not to drive it and it was stolen and I wanted to press charges. Now....get this.....my ex, was kind and supportive of me through this and helpful as far as getting the vehicle out and working towards getting it fixed. He advised me to not let them tow it, just to leave it at his friends shop and we could see what to do from there...
I needed to go to the high school and pick up my daughter and take her to the police station and my ex told me to go ahead and he would handle the vehicle for me. I thanked him very much. He also kept me from hurting the boyfriend, you cannot imagine how mad I was...
At the police station it was determined the scoundrel had implied permission from my daughter, so it was not auto theft, however, my statement indicating a prior discussion where this kid knew he was not to ever drive this vehicle, may carry a bit of weight in the long run, it appears there are several other issues going on with this kid.....
After our statements were taken and my daughter got a bit of a lecture from a concerned police officer (who I am very thankful to for taking the time to talk to her), we were out the door. I talked to my ex husband, he indicated the damage doesn't appear to be too bad, some water damage, perhaps the rocker panel on the passenger side and it wouldn't start, probably because of water in the engine, maybe tomorrow we can assess the damage a little more and maybe it won't be so bad. My ex is going to call a guy to work on it, and seems to want to be involved in this situation. I thanked him again.
This evening my daughter texted her dad and thanked him for all of his help. His response, "it's what dad's do, I love you." Maybe, just maybe, this is the beginning of some healing in our family.
But I am still mad at the boyfriend.
OH and little Tonka, if it could have just held tight to the road for two more days.....it would have made it to one whole year since the last wreck.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
This is not.....
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Terry Polston - Hero
Our community suffered a great loss last week with the death of our beloved D.A.R.E. Officer Terry Polston. He touched thousands of lives, and each of us has one or more precious memory of him.
Mine came the night of my daughter's D.A.R.E. graduation and Officer Hawn selected her essay for her to read at graduation. She talked about how her dad's alcoholism has affected all of our lives and helped her to see what choices she should make. I was standing along the wall, tears streaming down my cheeks, Officer Polston came over to me, put his arm around me and whispered "Just be proud, Mom, be proud of your little girl, she is a fine young lady." I know am only one of thousands of parents that he reassured and comforted. He was a wonderful man and our community has truly suffered a great loss, but his legacy of love will live on.
Continue to keep his family in your prayers now as the dust settles and they are left with a big empty space in their lives going into the holiday season. I know he would not want them to be sad, but it will be so difficult for them.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
What's on my tree Wednesday...
Ok its time for what's on my tree Wednesday. This is one of my favorite ornaments. A long time ago, before I ever had kids, I sent out this Hallmark Christmas card just because it was so darned cute...
And now, I have three kids and I can tell you it changes on a daily basis as to which child has the crooked halo, but you can bet, when one is really bad, the other two are absolutely perfect.
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
Christmas in the heart
That search is on again this year. You know, the one I go on every year and it keeps getting more and more elusive, the search for Christmas in my heart.
I want so badly to be back to my old self at Christmas. The one who put a tree in every room of the house, the one who decorated every nook and cranny, the one who had Christmas music or Christmas movies on 24/7, the one who made corny Christmas crafts with the kids that later became my most prized treasures, the one who baked all kinds of cookies and treats from Thanksgiving on and went on little visits with the kids and delivered plates of Christmas goodies to special friends, the one who took goodies to the nursing homes to the residents who didn't have family near....I want to be that person again.
Life has changed so much and circumstances have changed so much. I have become so bitter and jaded that I don't let anyone inside to see the real me anymore and I don't let the real me peek out too often. I have the biggest heart of gold and would do anything to help someone in need, especially if they are a stranger, I have a much harder time opening up to those that are closest to me, you see, they are the ones who have the power to hurt me...
So with that said, how do I find Christmas in my heart again? I have been soul searching for the true meaning, and do you know what I am finding the true meaning to be? I am finding it is acknowledging the ones you love, letting them know how much they mean to you and then basking in the glow of knowing what special people you do have in your life. I have reconnected with a few this past week and its starting to feel more like Christmas.
Its not the gifts, or the decorations. Its time spent with the ones you truly love and making sure that they know how much you truly love them. That is Christmas.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
What's on my tree Wednesday...
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
What's on my tree Wednesday...
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Dying Boy's Last Wish Granted
There is a wonderful new angel in heaven looking over all of us, Brendan died last Friday morning.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Kelsay's Pink Flamingo Tree
One Christmas tree is up! I will redo this with better pictures tomorrow, but I just couldn't wait to share!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Very Sad
My two boys are shook up by this. I am shook up by this. The young man who passed away was the young man moms want their sons to grow up to be. He was handsome, he was charming, he was a hardworker, he adored his son, he had a personality that just drew people to him. He took the time to stop and talk and LISTEN to everyone. His life turned down the wrong road and unfortunately got the better of him. Its so very sad. I can't imagine running into Leesburg and not running into him anymore. He always had a hug and a kiss for me and words of encouragement. Such wise words from someone so young.
My heart breaks for his family and more than anything for his precious little boy who will grow up having a hard time remembering his daddy, and will miss knowing the wonderful man he truly was.
My oldest son is really struggling with this. I also shared a couple of days ago my concern for my son in that he is a yes man and does not wish to hurt anyone's feelings. I fear this could work against him and I fear he could easily follow in his father's footsteps and let alcohol take hold of his life. I asked him to honor the memory of our friend by remembering how his choices cost him his life and hurt so many people left behind to pick up the pieces. Pick up the pieces of what did not have to be. I begged my son to take a long hard look at this and apply it positively to his own life. Then I told him I love him. I can still do that.
I would be oh so very dissappointed....
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Small Fryday Contest!??!??!??!
One very near and dear to my heart friend that I had lost contact with...Miss Katie at This Crazy Life has been a Godsend to me. I used to babysit this little girl and once I found her blog I read the whole thing in one night and caught up on a lot of her life that I missed once I married. Through Katie I have found several other refreshing blogs that have mysteriously worked together the renew my faith in God, which is something I needed desperately as I continue my struggles as a single mom with an ex-husband who is playing with the hearts and minds of our precious children.
With Katie being much younger than me, somehow I feel I have almost slipped into a role of a somewhat older and wiser mom who can offer reassurance to Katie and some of her other bloggy friends. With three kids, I have "been there and done that"! I think some of my most valuable advice thus far would just have to be the duct tape for boys diapers, as long as you are careful not to get the tape onto the skin! ;)
Anyway, the reason for this post is another blog that I found through Katie and I have followed it for 3 months or so.... is My Charming Kids on this wonderful blog you will find the wonderful story of a miracle. You will see and learn first hand the power of prayer. I cannot tell you the many wonderful ways MckMama and her family have touched my heart and relit the candle inside of me. She will never know how truly grateful I am to her. You really need to check this one blog out if you do nothing else, your heart will be forever engraved with her words and her beautiful family. MckMama is hosting a contest to draw more visitors to her blog, and this is so unlike me, but I am on this bandwagon...
I know some think of us bloggers as foolish and think we are lost in the cyber world, but I have to tell you, when I am at work each day and take my breaks, I take a blog break rather than a smoke break - so you tell me, how healthy is that!?!?!?! My blog has enriched my life by giving me a place to not only vent, but to learn what things in this life I am truly passionate about, by revealing myself to others, I have revealed my true self to me, and it is refreshing to know what I stand for and what I believe and what I want in this life for my kids and for myself. I have learned I am not alone in my beliefs and there others out there who just get it!
So please, take a moment and visit MckMama, You will not ever regret it.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Ya Live, Ya Learn
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
My Kids
I worry so much as they are growing up. I worry about their choices they will make. I worry about if I have given them enough guidance and a good foundation to make the right decisions. Maybe I just like to worry. When they are hurting, I hurt too.
My heart breaks a thousand times a day for my daughter and the wrongs her dad has done to her. She did nothing wrong except to be a little girl who wanted to be with her daddy and he slammed the door in her face. As I work on her order for graduation my heart breaks to go ahead and make plans and plan on her dad just ignoring this special event in her life. I think of the special days to come in her life and wonder if she and her dad will ever make peace. Every girl wants to be daddy's little girl and he has taken that from her. I can't make it right and I can't replace him. I offer as much as I can and do the best I can and I pray she will be ok.
I worry so much about my older son. He wants to make everyone happy. He is a "yes man", he will tell you exactly what you want to hear so as not to hurt your feelings. This concerns me very much because by doing that I fear he has lost himself in the shuffle of trying to be what everyone expects of him or wants for him. This has become painfully evident during the course of this latest legal battle with my exhusband. He filed for custody of this son because I filed for an increase in child support. It is so obvious as to why he filed for custody, to reduce child support, not because he truly loves his son. And if it was truly because he loves this child, why would he select only one of his children? How can he shun one child and adore another and pay minimal attention to the third one? These are things I don't understand. And these are things I do not know how to explain to my kids.
I don't worry too much about the little guy yet. I am sure he will give me his fair share of gray hairs too, but for now he is on even keel and his biggest concern is how to best divide his time fairly amongst all of his family members.
I love my kids, I love each of their unique personalities, I am oh so proud of each and every one of them and I hope they know and understand this even when I am "mean mommy" and/or
DragonLady."
Sunday, November 16, 2008
So I have been tagged
Thursday, November 13, 2008
PLaYinG aGaiN
So on to another similar topic. I am loving my home office. One day soon I will blog about my entire ordeal with the arched window in my office that lets in too much light in the early mornings. It was a painful and frustrating ordeal that I am just not quite ready or able to completely put into words, but I will one day soon, I might even take pictures.......mebbe not.
Working at home is great. The kids have commented on how much better my mood is. You see, I can do laundry all day while I am working...and I am getting caught up on that and I can start dinner and have a decent meal with my kids in the evening. Without being totally stressed out. When they get home from school, I try to be at a point in my work where I can just stop and talk with them about their day. It is so cool, you have no idea. I have a comfy leather loveseat and chair with ottoman in my office and they just kick back and talk my ears off. The biggest problem is reminding them to quiet down when the phone rings, it is after all a business phone. But we are working on that.
During the day, I get to choose what music I want to listen to. Very way cool. I keep the tv off, I am afraid I would just be drawn into the other room to watch it. Besides I can get my news updates and blog fixes online as I work, I quite often have my laptop over to the side with messenger on while I am busy working on the other computer, this way I still feel like I am in touch with the outside world and it dings me when I get an email. And the cool thing is if its cold and dreary and I want to stay in my pajamas I can. So far I haven't though, I make an effort to get my shower and get dressed and be in the office and working by 8. (I have been coming in early every day so far!)
I have to give an honorable mention to Katie at This Crazy Life Because I have taken so much from her blog and learned so much from her blog. (Did I mention that I have known this munchkin since she was a baby? I used to babysit this wonderful kid!) I have found some other really incredible blogs that I am dying to link to, but I don't want to look like a stalker or something. I did add My Charming Kids because its awesome, warning, I was reduced to tears. Katie has some other really cool links for adoptive families that are also very heartwarming. But speaking of Katie, I haven't seen or heard from her since I emailed her the buckeye recipe, methinks she is lost in her kitchen!
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Christmas Canon Rock
So Maggie and I are hard at work today and trying to get a little into the upcoming Holiday Season, so we are listening to TSO and working really hard.....well at least I am, Maggie wore herself out!
Monday, November 10, 2008
The Lego King
I do love watching him work on these kits though, not the typical male species, he sorts the pieces and follows the instructions step by step. He used to do this with the Bionocles and Transformers before he could even read! What a kid.
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Home Office
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Cute Animals,
To the tune of, "Why Can't We Be Friends"... It's time to lighten up and get back to life and stuff...
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
I won't lie....
The people have voted and the decision is made, so now its onward and upward and let's hope for the best for everyone.
Proud To Be An American Laser Show (God Bless the USA)
Regardless of the election outcome, I am still proud to be an American.
Obama Pastor: God Damn America
If nothing else is making you think...watch this, this man is a close personal friend and inspiration to Barack Obama, 20 years of sitting in his pew...
Just Vote!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Riots are fears, emotions running too high.
Whoever wins this election is not going to want to do that so much, because they will lose the popular vote of the people and will have a hard time seeking re-election in 2012. But you know, that is my own personal opinion and as you know - we all have our own personal opinion.
I also have a strong conviction that come Wednesday morning, no matter who has won the election, Wednesday is the day that Americans need to unite as one, climb on the bandwagon together and support the person that has won by popular vote. At that point (well actually in January) they will be our leader and we will then need to follow and support our leader. That is not to say our voices should go unheard, but we still need to support the President, whoever it may be.
Many cities across the united states are preparing for riots Tuesday evening depending on the outcome of the election. The reports I am finding indicate the fear the outbreak will come if Obama would lose. Read this and this . Does this scare anyone besides me? And I am not so sure that it would happen only in Obama would lose, I think emotions are high enough now and people are so divided and passionate about the issue, I think it could happen either way the outcome falls.
These are truly sad and scary times. I so wish the future of our country looked a little more promising, but the writing on the wall indicates its going to take awhile to fix this mess we are in.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Take the time
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Make Everyday Safe, not just Halloween
National Sex Offender Registry
Family Watch Dog Bookmark this link and use it. I pulled the following facts off of the Family Watchdog website:
The sad facts about sex offenses and those that perpetrate them.
impact on society.
- 1 of 5 girls will be sexually molested before her 18th birthday.
- 1 of 6 boys will be sexually molested before his 18th birthday.
- 1 of 5 children have been propositioned for sex over the Internet.
- 2 of 3 sexual abuses are perpetrated against teenagers or younger children.
- 90% of sexual assaults are committed against someone the perpetrator knows.
- The median age for male molestation victims under 18 is 9.8 years old.
- The median age for female molestation victims under 18 is 9.6 years old.
- There are new 400,000 victims of sexual assault every year.
- There are over 550,000 registered sex offenders in the US.
- There are over 100,000 sex offenders that fail to register in the US.
- 76% of serial rapists claim they were molested as children.
- Over 40% of male juvenile delinquents were molested as children.
This website and the Indiana Sex Offender Registry are two great services provided to us free of charge to help us protect the safety of our children. When you have some down time, do yourself a huge favor and make yourself aware. Peruse these websites. Map your own address and search the radius around your home. Search further. Look to see who these people are and where they are working and living. I did this the other day after AWB brought to light the sex offender clusters. I was shocked at some of the things I found. I found one offender who I have dealt with in business and did not know he was a molester. He does not have his place of employment registered. He works in a business that takes him into residential settings on a daily basis. It scared the hell out of me because I almost invited him into my home to do some work.
Please use these tools and be very aware. Our children are the most precious possessions we have, and they are only on loan for us to keep care of and protect.
Posted by Lucy.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Women Getting Very Emotional
As you know, I had very little respect for Hillary as a woman, it was simple, she let me and women everywhere down when she stayed with Bill during the Monica orderal. Hillary is a strong powerful woman who can make it with or without him and she should have taken that stance for women everywhere. (Emotional)
Actually, when it came down to McCain vs Obama, I was very disheartened. I was going to vote for the lesser of two evils and remain loyal to my convictions. (Unhappy emotions)
Enter Sarah Palin. She struck a chord with me. At first it was indeed and perhaps still is, emotional. I still strongly say....she is living life in full color. I have a son who may choose to enter into the service of our country....she gets that, she understands. I have a 17 yr old daughter, she gets that, she understands. I am trying to live on a budget that goes less and less far each week. She gets that, she understands. I get that and I understand that she is the most down to earth candidate we have ever seen, she can relate to the largest majority of Americans. She will bring a different point of view and insight to the table and I believe it is exactly what America needs right now.
As for the mother daughter rift that was taking place within my family. My mother is terrified of the idea of Obama as president. She is changing tickets this year. My daughter is telling me now that the Book of Revelation has frightened her of her democratic proclamation she made earlier....she is now for the McCain-Palin ticket, if only she were old enough to vote! (Don't pounce on me, that last comment was made in fun, she has yet to truly figure out her political beliefs, all I want her to do is to research, listen and decide for herself.)
I could almost be miffed about this...
Monday, October 27, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
A plea to my fellow bloggers
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Sarah Coming to Fort Wayne
According to the Journal Gazette Sarah Palin will be in Fort Wayne this Saturday. It is my intent to get tickets and get there and see what she has to say.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Visions of pink and white....
Saturday, October 18, 2008
A 9 yr old's point of view
"Mom, if Obama wins I think a lot of people are going to move out of country and we are going to end up having no money." Huh? Where did that come from? Of course I had to probe into that statement, because, believe it or not, at this point I had no political discussions with him, I have been too focused on figuring things out myself and trying to understand where my daughter is coming from.
So my youngest son goes on to tell me if he works really hard and makes $1000 a day, he is going to end up with only about $200 for all of his hard work while four other people who did nothing all day end up with the same amount. (Did I mention this kid is 9 years old?)
He went on to say, in his words..."the whole plan is gay". Now I wasn't too crazy about his choice of words, but nonetheless, he gets it. He said, "Mom I want to be rich someday, I want to work hard and have nice things, I will just have to go live somewhere else, why would I want to live here?" (Is the air sucked out of your lungs yet?)
The greatest country on earth, so let's change it???
This whole conversation with my son hit home harder last night when I read this post .
Thursday, October 16, 2008
This is what I hear when I really listen to Obama
Communism
A system of government in which the state plans and controls the
economy and a single, often authoritarian party holds power, claiming to
make
progress toward a higher social order in which all goods are equally
shared by
the people. American Heritage Dictionary
I am sorry folks, but there it is, plain and simple. You elect a Democrat President with congress being controlled by the Democrats and we can all watch our dreams go down the toliet. Because like it or not, someone is going to be paying for all of the free stuff somewhere, and its going to be the working folks!
Monday, October 13, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
OUCH!
Two summers ago I was rearranging furniture in my bedroom and went to move one of the white recliners and ran over my big toe with it. I peeled back most of the toenail, had blood every, got woozy and the whole nine yards. I resorted to calling my sister bawling my eyes out and she advised me to go to my mom's and have her bandage it up for me. So I went to Mom's crying and carrying on like a two year old and it took her and my stepdad to settle me down and get me all bandaged up. This was at the beginning of the summer and I hobbled for days and wore flip flops the entire summer. I think it was sometime in August when the nail finally fell off and it was almost an entire year before it grew back in. I was convinced that it wasn't going to grow back in at all. So, why I am I telling you this story now? Well....
Just a little bit ago, I was moving furniture in my bedroom again, moving the recliner again, and guess what I did again? Yeppers! Same toe even. This time I didn't call my mom or my sister. Instead I called my son on his cell phone, he was all the way upstairs in his room you see, and there was no way I was going up the stairs, what with the bloody mess and all...
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
2008 week 5
Sunday, Oct. 5
Buffalo Bills 17 at
Arizona Cardinals 41 (-1.5)
AWB ~ Cardinals
JR ~ Bills
TZ ~
Tennessee Titans 13 (-2.5) at
Baltimore Ravens 10
AWB ~ Titans
JR ~ Ravens
TZ ~
Kansas City Chiefs 0 at
Carolina Panthers 34 (-9.5)
AWB ~ Panthers
JR ~ Kansas
TZ ~
Indianapolis Colts 31 (-2.5) at
Houston Texans 27
AWB ~ Colts
JR ~ Colts
TZ ~
San Diego Chargers 10 (-6.5) at
Miami Dolphins 17
AWB ~ San Diego
JR ~ San Diego
TZ ~
Chicago Bears 34 (-3.5) at
Detroit Lions 7
AWB ~ Chicago
JR ~ Chicago
TZ ~
Atlanta Falcons 27 at
Green Bay Packers 24 (Off?)
AWB ~ Green Bay
JR ~ Green Bay
TZ ~
Seattle Seahawks 6 at
New York Giants 44 (-6.5)
AWB ~ New York
JR ~ Seattle
TZ ~
Washington Redskins 23 at
Philadelphia Eagles 17 (-5.5)
AWB ~ Philly
JR ~ Philly
TZ ~
Tampa Bay Buccaneers 13 at
Denver Broncos 16 (-2.5)
AWB ~ Denver
JR ~ Denver
TZ ~
Cincinnati Bengals 22 at point spread
Dallas Cowboys 31 (-16.5)
AWB ~ Dallas
JR ~ Dallas
TZ ~
New England Patriots 30 (-2.5) at
San Francisco 49ers 21
AWB ~ Patriots
JR ~ New England
TZ ~
Pittsburgh Steelers 26 at
Jacksonville Jaguars 21 (-3.5)
AWB ~ Jacksonville
JR ~ Pittsburgh
TZ ~
Monday, Oct. 6
Minnesota Vikings at
New Orleans Saints (-3.5)
AWB ~ Minnesota
JR ~ New Orleans
TZ ~
Bye week: St. Louis Rams, New York Jets, Cleveland Browns, Oakland Raiders
So I totally suck this week, AWB kicked my butt, at this point without the Monday night game he won 8-5!!!